Sigh....
I'm feeling so wasted... I dont want to lift up my IPRA textbook, in which I havent even touched yet... and the examination is next week...
I got 70+ for the IPRA test.... I'm like so dead...
How am I going to maintain my average of Bs to get into the specialist course?....
This is killing me...
No.. really... my laziness is going to be my ultimate downfall...
I've spent the whole night in front of the computer looking at htmls from other sites... and wondering how on earth can I change my already VERY complicated blog template..
Then I realized that it is almost impossible...
By that time, it was already 10:30...
BAH... 20x
I am scheduled for worship practice this saturday after my minor break for 2 weeks... I really dont feel like going actually...
I dont even feel like I belong in my church anymore... The people there are super cool and super fun... but they all talk stuff which I dont know or cant relate too...
Mostly about soccer, basketball and sports related stuff...
And I'm not close at all to the gals... maybe only Evelyn...
Sigh... But I'm binded by responsibility to St. Matthew's Church... I was born there, brought up there, and my childhood friends are all there....
Moreover, if I leave now, there will not be any pianist or keyboardist for at least another year or so that can commit as much "time" as me...
I wonder if God knows my effort....
Talking about effort... Does society acknowledge effort or result?
It is extremely debatable...
But I mean like.. duh... Everything is based on results...
If you are the boss of a company, you gave the assignment to a person and he works night and day for 2 weeks, and completes it with average results
Compared to a person who worked for 2 days, and completed the assignment with even better results.....
The boss will definately sack the 1st person or at least re-post him to an easier position, and promote the person who is extremely "efficient"...
So, as you can see... The world does not acknowledge effort, but only result....
Bottom line is.. if you know that you can never compare to another group of people, give up totally and work with another...
This will increase your chance of survival substentially...
Thus, I have given up most hope of achieving my dreams of being in the honour's roll in DMC....
No matter how much effort I put in, it NEVER EVER shows...
My life is just so great..........
Tomorrow is the IVP examination, and I dont even know what to talk about...
It is as though I could just fall flat on my face and die during the examination...
April Fools?...
I might as well fool around with the lecturer... I wont be getting my ideal results anywayz...
Thursday, March 31, 2005
Feeling good..
I was reading through this list I found on one of Sonia's friend's blog....
It brought a tear to my eye as I realized that I have experianced every single one of those below...
Even the drive on a pretty road.. jus that it was a bicycle...
My past...... how I miss every single one of those times...
Think about them one at a time BEFORE going on to the next one...
IT DOES MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD, especially the thought at the end.
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favourite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake ... (or vanilla ... or strawberry!)
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach
16. Finding a 20-£ note in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. (it's missing?)
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
24. Friends.
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to
sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies (and eating them...!).
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good
or bad) never change.
40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much-desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise.
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.
It brought a tear to my eye as I realized that I have experianced every single one of those below...
Even the drive on a pretty road.. jus that it was a bicycle...
My past...... how I miss every single one of those times...
Think about them one at a time BEFORE going on to the next one...
IT DOES MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD, especially the thought at the end.
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favourite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake ... (or vanilla ... or strawberry!)
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach
16. Finding a 20-£ note in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. (it's missing?)
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
24. Friends.
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to
sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies (and eating them...!).
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good
or bad) never change.
40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much-desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise.
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Suicide?.... dotz...
You scored as Suicide. Your death will be suicide. What more can I say? Fact: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
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I scored as a Christian! i hope...
 | You scored as Christianity. Your views are most similar to those of Christianity. Do more research on Christianity and possibly consider being baptized and accepting Jesus, if you aren't already Christian. Christianity is the second of the Abrahamic faiths; it follows Judaism and is followed by Islam. It differs in its belief of Jesus, as not a prophet nor historical figure, but as God in human form. The Holy Trinity is the concept that God takes three forms: the Father, the Son (Jesus), and the Holy Ghost (sometimes called Holy Spirit). Jesus taught the idea of instead of seeking revenge, one should love his or her neighbors and enemies. Christians believe that Jesus died on the cross to save humankind and forgive people's sins.
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omg.. i'm 28% satanist... eekz
Boring THoughts...
LoLzz... I didnt blog yesterday... so before I post an ultra super duper boring post about "The Boring Life of Thirtieth March"
Anywayz.. Yesterday was a really weird day for me...
I woke up in the morning and guess wad.. there was sand around my bed... ewww.... My bro must have walked around the house in his army boots...
arrgh!... I just had the house mopped yesterday... and I have to sweep it all over again....
If I step on another grain of sand... I'm going ta kill him...
Have been feeling really un-fit recently... Havent been working out nor have I even taken a look at the pool.. its really examination fever.... boohoohoo...
Actually I wanted to go to SP everyday but it seemed so dumb just to go there to go "exercise" so I decided to stay at home....
(btw... Sonia has an extra super duper long AHHHHH on her blog.. go see!)
oh yah... My grandma has been acting very weird recently too.. toldya it was a weird day...
First, she called me to ask if it was Sunday...
Then, I said no.. it was only Tuesday...
Then she asked if we were going to church.... (everybody start to roll ya eyes...)
Then I said that we only go church on Sunday...
Then she asked if it was Sunday today...
.... and this went on for quite some time... so I continue to humour her and myself as I had nothing better to do...
after awhile, she accepted the fact that it wasnt Sunday and put down the phone...
20 minutes later, she showed up at my house... and said that she was prepared to go to church... can you belive it?>_< omg....
So I coax her into the living room and turned on the television and she soon forgot everything and started talking crap again...
At least she helped me with the laundry =P
weeeell..... the eccentricities of the elderly... senior citizens... centinarians... ancients... whatever....
So now.. what is left of the School Term is
1) IVP Discussion Cafe - This week
2) IPRA Examination - 2 weeks from now
3) FUNE Examination - 2 weeks from now...
So.. I'm relatively free now....
But I'm bored stiff... usually around these times, when I have nothing to do I would go out with my AJ friends and walk about aimlessly talking about the funny ups and downs that we have in life....
But now... I've kinda took an extra-super-duper long vacation away from the AJ society...
And looks like I wont be going back again...
But at what cost?.... I miss my friends... especially Calvin kor and Nicky didi who has always been so close to me...
sigh...
I really dunno if I made the right decision....
It so difficult to connect with all the straight guys out there....
haiz....
I feel more and more distant from my church friends... as they are mostly busy or talking about soccer and stuff which I have no interest in or I dont understand....
So how on earth am I suppose to relate to them?
boo hoo hoo...
erpz...
Think I've blogged to much..
Ciaoz! peePz....
Happy Birthday Tim...
Anywayz.. Yesterday was a really weird day for me...
I woke up in the morning and guess wad.. there was sand around my bed... ewww.... My bro must have walked around the house in his army boots...
arrgh!... I just had the house mopped yesterday... and I have to sweep it all over again....
If I step on another grain of sand... I'm going ta kill him...
Have been feeling really un-fit recently... Havent been working out nor have I even taken a look at the pool.. its really examination fever.... boohoohoo...
Actually I wanted to go to SP everyday but it seemed so dumb just to go there to go "exercise" so I decided to stay at home....
(btw... Sonia has an extra super duper long AHHHHH on her blog.. go see!)
oh yah... My grandma has been acting very weird recently too.. toldya it was a weird day...
First, she called me to ask if it was Sunday...
Then, I said no.. it was only Tuesday...
Then she asked if we were going to church.... (everybody start to roll ya eyes...)
Then I said that we only go church on Sunday...
Then she asked if it was Sunday today...
.... and this went on for quite some time... so I continue to humour her and myself as I had nothing better to do...
after awhile, she accepted the fact that it wasnt Sunday and put down the phone...
20 minutes later, she showed up at my house... and said that she was prepared to go to church... can you belive it?>_< omg....
So I coax her into the living room and turned on the television and she soon forgot everything and started talking crap again...
At least she helped me with the laundry =P
weeeell..... the eccentricities of the elderly... senior citizens... centinarians... ancients... whatever....
So now.. what is left of the School Term is
1) IVP Discussion Cafe - This week
2) IPRA Examination - 2 weeks from now
3) FUNE Examination - 2 weeks from now...
So.. I'm relatively free now....
But I'm bored stiff... usually around these times, when I have nothing to do I would go out with my AJ friends and walk about aimlessly talking about the funny ups and downs that we have in life....
But now... I've kinda took an extra-super-duper long vacation away from the AJ society...
And looks like I wont be going back again...
But at what cost?.... I miss my friends... especially Calvin kor and Nicky didi who has always been so close to me...
sigh...
I really dunno if I made the right decision....
It so difficult to connect with all the straight guys out there....
haiz....
I feel more and more distant from my church friends... as they are mostly busy or talking about soccer and stuff which I have no interest in or I dont understand....
So how on earth am I suppose to relate to them?
boo hoo hoo...
erpz...
Think I've blogged to much..
Ciaoz! peePz....
Happy Birthday Tim...
Hi Sonia
boo hoo hoo
Because I havent studied for anything yet
Boo hoo hoo... lets cry together
(For your information, this is just what me and Sonia are doing in the BizIT library now... haha.. we are THIS bored...)
"If you have read Sonia's blog and curiosity got the better of you... well then.. sorry to disappoint you folks... boo hoo hoo.. hahahaha =P"
boo hoo hoo
Because I havent studied for anything yet
Boo hoo hoo... lets cry together
(For your information, this is just what me and Sonia are doing in the BizIT library now... haha.. we are THIS bored...)
"If you have read Sonia's blog and curiosity got the better of you... well then.. sorry to disappoint you folks... boo hoo hoo.. hahahaha =P"
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIMO! xD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIMO! xD
Its your day ta-day...
You're turning 18 ta-day...
la la la la la la la laaaa...
that makes me the YOUNGEST guy in the class!! hahaha....
BOO! haha!
oh ermz... yah.. still got Jonathan... Nevermind.. he's my twin bro.. so we can both be de-ma youngest boyz in dee coolestest classss =D
Timo's bithday present isnt available at the current moment, thanks to some logistic mishaps on the supplier's part...
But I got a feeling that he will like it... LoLz....
(I'm making Timothy ~filled with suspicion.blogspot.com~)
Actually, when I told him that he might like his b'dae present... you guess what he answered...
you GUESS
lolz... Final Fantasy Advent Children... Which wont be out for like a pretty long time still... urgh.. lolz... I should have bought him a whole collection of Final Fantasy memoirs instead...
He'll probably like it...
haha.... I'm kidding... TImo.. dont kill me please....
Well den...
I'll say an extra super-duper long prayer for ya tonight, and ask God to bless ya with da nicest year, of your 1st year into adulthood...
P.S DONT GO CLUBBING WITHOUT ME. ^_^
I'm going brokeeeee... SOO many people's birthday are in MARCH...
haha... I've spent like over 500 this month alone already... record for da year!
Ciaoz peepz!
Ciaoz TIMO!
Its your day ta-day...
You're turning 18 ta-day...
la la la la la la la laaaa...
that makes me the YOUNGEST guy in the class!! hahaha....
BOO! haha!
oh ermz... yah.. still got Jonathan... Nevermind.. he's my twin bro.. so we can both be de-ma youngest boyz in dee coolestest classss =D
Timo's bithday present isnt available at the current moment, thanks to some logistic mishaps on the supplier's part...
But I got a feeling that he will like it... LoLz....
(I'm making Timothy ~filled with suspicion.blogspot.com~)
Actually, when I told him that he might like his b'dae present... you guess what he answered...
you GUESS
lolz... Final Fantasy Advent Children... Which wont be out for like a pretty long time still... urgh.. lolz... I should have bought him a whole collection of Final Fantasy memoirs instead...
He'll probably like it...
haha.... I'm kidding... TImo.. dont kill me please....
Well den...
I'll say an extra super-duper long prayer for ya tonight, and ask God to bless ya with da nicest year, of your 1st year into adulthood...
P.S DONT GO CLUBBING WITHOUT ME. ^_^
Timo - 18 years old
Jason - 18 years old
Ryan - 18 years old
Aizat - 18 years old
James - 18 years old
Me - 17 years old
Jonathan - 17 years old
I'm going brokeeeee... SOO many people's birthday are in MARCH...
haha... I've spent like over 500 this month alone already... record for da year!
Ciaoz peepz!
Ciaoz TIMO!
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